I first had to make the mental shift before I could receive the help, and that was the only way I was able to avoid repeating all of my past ways. When I was finally ready, with humility and acceptance, the universe was waiting. As she always is.
Absence, though uncomfortable, is not something to be avoided or afraid of. It’s awful. It’s the bringer to light of all of our discomfort that we have avoided, sometimes, for years. Absence feels. Even though you think that it shouldn’t. Even though this is the one sensation you think shouldn’t feel like anything, it does.