I Was The Other Woman for Years and Had No Idea

In the last years we were together, I knew things weren’t lining up, his words, his actions, things were off.  But I also knew I couldn’t be in a relationship with someone I didn’t trust and I wanted to be with him, so I decided to trust him.

Moving On from an On-Again/Off-Again Relationship

It’s been nearly six months and my mind is finally becoming my own again.  For five and a half months you couldn’t really say I was ‘getting over him’ what I was doing could only be described as ‘not calling him.’  And look, I’m not saying I deserve a medal or anything, but I’m notContinue reading “Moving On from an On-Again/Off-Again Relationship”

Worst Fears

There’s something about my experience here on earth that involves living out my worst fears.  Not in the macro, nuclear, loved ones dying/world ending kind of way, but the micro, ‘I’m not worthy/deserving of love’ kind of way.  Getting beat up in high school was something that terrified me from a super young age.  I’dContinue reading “Worst Fears”

I Miss Hugs

I have gotten too good at going it alone.  I am an affectionate person who has learned not to be touched.  I live, work and travel alone.  I eat, sleep and dance alone.  My wires got crossed somewhere along the way, COVID was far too easy for me.  I only started to question it, questionContinue reading “I Miss Hugs”